That's right, I made the obligatory play on words. But it was a blast! Keith surprised me with a super-cute Myspace tribute... and I surprised Keith with pink heart-shaped sushi (home-made)! The perfect nontraditional gift for anyone who's sick of giving flowers, chocolates, and promises you don't intend to keep ;)




Another update to come shortly on my craaaaazy new hair.

Long time no update, and not much to add... Keith and I are going strong, I love that guy so much... wish I could do more for him, but at least I get to give him massages *grins*

School's been captivating a lot of my life right now, since it's a parasite. Also, I've [finally, and a little late] started to play Final Fantasy games, namely VIII, which is my new lovechild. Keith bought me 5-8 and I bought 10, so I have a lot of RPG to go #_#

I saw Carolynn for the first time (outside of work) in weeks, and, if you don't count special occasions, probably months then. I never really get to see her anymore.... but, we still have 2 seasons of Buffy to get through, so no more dillydallying!

Lots of stuff to do tomorrow, and some stuff to finish up on tonight. Blah =(

It was Keith's and my two-month anniversary today! We didn't really do anything to celebrate, but just hanging out was enough. I had to write a poem for poetry class so I decided to dedicate it to him. It's not my usual style-it doesn't rhyme- but I'm very happy with how it turned out.

There is no soundtrack
for a life of small accomplishment-
no exalting fanfare for
a hard day’s work, no
pealing bells to herald
your return. No distant
flutes to serenade
a heart in love,
no requiem
to celebrate a loss.

Perhaps the most we
mortal few may hope for
is the quiet hum of comfort,
a muffled heartbeat
pressed against our ear,
the gentle sigh
of breathing by our side,
a stifled cry that bids us each goodbye.


I don't know how I managed to forget, but I never posted Keith's costume pics from Halloween. Lol, he's so super cool, he went as a Pokemon Trainer =P






I love my Keith.

Or, more appropriately, Wii! Yes, my friends and cohorts, I, your friend and humble narrator, have got a Wii. No, let me rephrase that. My endlessly amazing and crazy boyfriend BOUGHT me a Wii! How NUTS is that?! Fuck, he needs hellz more sex than I give him to repay him that kindness. So yes, fun times are certainly in store for this little bugger.

And speaking of "humble narrator" (which is a quote from Clockwork Orange, my little droogies), I shall now post the delectable Clockwork Orange Halloween costume pictures! There aren't many and they aren't great quality (except for the photoshopped one) but they're fun to see, and my likeness, I hear, is quite shocking =) I hope you enjoy viddying them!

My new favourite picture of me, bwahaha!



An attempt to re-enact the movie poster (apparently the angle was wrong, blah)



A full detail of the costume, from bowler to boots! Heheh.





That's it for todayz0rz!

It should be noted that I have breached Keith's hymen!!!! At least, Live-journally speaking, of course. I am the first to be his Livejournal friend. Hoo-rah!

Excitement ahoy! With Halloween tiptoeing ever closer, my Clockwork Orange costume is proving quite the delicious snack for my naked body. Not that Keith isn't the main course. I DIGRESS. Pictures will of course come after the event itself, which while only tentatively scheduled, involves COSTUME BOWLING! W00t indeed, Oh my brothers.

Keith's so tubular. In fact, even eighties slang doesn't do him justice. The only words that possibly could would be my own set of adjectives. He's ace. He's boss. He's both phenom AND terrif. Sextacular sexplosion of porntastic proportions INDEED. He makes me make squealy sounds in the boudoir.

University is a bitch and a half, but I'm coping. Work is neither here nor there. Keith fills the rest of my time with sunshine. I wish I could do more for him, like parade naked down the streets in jubilation... actually, that does more for me than for him. Alas, I always feel tired around him, but that's a compliment and not an insult. It means that I feel safe around him, I can let down my guard, relax, and fall asleep in his arms. Still, I wish I had the strength to be his tiger, not his housecat.

On a final note... what's big and pink and sexy beyond all measure? Besides an erect penis, the answer would be, THE SEX AND THE CITY ULTIMATE COLLECTION THAT I JUST BOUGHT! That's right, Sex and the City fanatics, I'm a step up from you now!

The Illusionist, followed by Keith sleeping over for the first time, makes for too much awesomeness in one night. That guy is incredible (and has quite adept hands too!)!

So, I've reached a new stage of WTF-geekiness. I found my Pokémon soundtrack (from the show, not the movie) and am listening to it now...

...and liking it.

Keith rox0rz my undergarments. He's a sweetie and a good cuddler, heheh. We watch Sex & The City and he says mean things about me. He's a good drawer too. I'm happy things are going well so far.

In other news, the rest of my life is boring and tiring and sucky. But I'm buying the GBA remake of the original Pokemon. Because the original pokemon was amazing. I wish I could remember which pokemon I had in my original team.

What? I'm not a geek! ...

It's of interest to note that Keith and I are gonna try dating! Could be interesting. Pretty much came out of the blue, although as anybody who knows me will realize, I pretty much calculate and think ahead for ANY situation, so yes, I've already considered it. There are some wrinkles to iron, but I'm currently very excited.

Seems like I'm long overdue for one of these things. And yet, so little has changed. Still single, still tired...

Three seperate guys deceived me into thinking they were gay and turned out to be straight, in ONE WEEK. Listen up, straight guys, if I've never met you before and you smile at me *multiple times* during class lectures or on bus rides, I'm bound to think you're gay, ESPECIALLY if you're cute to boot. So fucking cut it out!!!

Hung out with Keith yesterday, that was fun-esque. He chain-invited, and it drives me crazy when people do that, but I looked pretty good (for me) and I did my best at witty reparté. He also gave me a sassy Zero shirt as a b-lated b-day gift, I wore it today and it fits quite well.

University workload's been a bitch, our group for Comm. theory had to do our oral the FIRST WEEK. At least that's out of the way, I only now have the 80 other projects I need to worry about.

What's with Myspace tards who add me for no reason?! They're in, like, Saskatchewan or some shit, have NOTHING in common with me, are sometimes girls.... so I went and I deleted all the tards I'd previously accepted adds from, and I'm gonna be more critical now. Hear that, Saskatchewan? You're on my blacklist!!!

So, this is the most embarrassing, ego-dashing story ever. So we all know I never get hit on, EVER. The other day after I leave work my manager calls to tell me that she found a note on the counter from some girl saying "Hey Alan, I think you're kind of hot. If you wanna call me, my number's *whatever*, my name's Alessandra. P.S. you better call me because it's my birthday today, so call me and wish me happy birthday!"
As ridiculous as this is, it's still a little flattering. I didn't wanna call her (she's a girl, and it'd be awkward anyways, and I was already at home) so my manager decided to call... and she'd NEVER HEARD OF ME. Her friends played a fucking prank on her/me, she hadn't even been in Blockbuster that day. Yes, that's right my friends and acquaintances, I have officially been lowered to the status of so-ugly-that-I-get-prank-hit-ons. How depressing.

Chris is dating someone new! Good for him, but bad for me. More ego-dashing, as well as knowing I'm losing the race to happiness against him. Damn you proverbial tortoise speed!

So I love how all my downtown friends bug me ALL THE FUCKING TIME to hang out downtown with them, and then after class I call EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM and none of them want to do anything. And that happened two or three times. Thanks, hypocrites!

That's all I can think of of huge relevence for the mo'.

Birthday came and went. I guess it was fun enough, but the weather was blah, and while some things during the celebrating were definitely fun, all in all it seemed a little disappointing. It's probably just that I had impossible expectations, but still, I'm afraid I'm suffering from a bit of post-birthday depression.

My love life died. Or was dead before. I dunno. In any case, perpetual single-tude is just around the corner, I'm sure.

I want a less emo picture for my livejournal, just so people can say it doesn't look so emo. At least until they read it, that is.

It's been a little while since I last updated. Not much happened the first few days, but the last few have been quite eventful! Here's a recap.

Alex, Francis, Josh and I had a boy's night out which was very fun! Joshy drove us all to Chinatown and we ate really yummy food at this Bubble Tea place (OMG Bubble Tea looks gross), then we drove to the village so that Francis and Alex could get some stuff at Priape, including a new toy. They ended up getting the Hydrant (haha, j/k). Josh had to leave then but Alex and Francis didn't, so they dragged me to Sky so they could have a pitcher... we sat on the Terrace, which was nice but a little cold. Afterwards, I told them that in recompense for the bar they'd have to come with me to a cafe so I could get cake, so we went to Starbucks for a little while afterwards.

The most eventful moment was when we got back from the Chinese food restaurant and these construction workers told us that some black guy (poor Alex, so many stereotypes =P) tried to steal Josh's car by breaking the window panel! In plain sight of the workers!!! Needless to say, they shouted at him and he ran away. Nice guys, those workers were. Karma (or Car-ma, as Josh put it) was on Josh's side, because Alex almost forgot to roll up his window until Josh reminded him, and Alex's window was the one the crook tried to open! Wacky coincidences!

The other interesting development is that there's a guy I really like, who likes me back =) There was a little dilemma where Keith also really liked him and I figured they were gonna get together, but it turns out that he's not really interested in Keith. I hoped there'd be no resentment between us, and was worried for a little while, but Keith seems to be handling it alright. He's also sick... Poor guy. Get better!

Birthday supper labour day Sunday! Excitement ahoy.

Or, more appropriately, news which holds both a good facet and a bad one. So Juco and I broke up. He initiated it, but throughout the relationship I started to see that we don't really have that much in common. Sure there's some stuff, but at our cores we're just entirely different people. I'm glad we ended on good terms though. We're staying friends, which is good, and because of all the time I spent away from him because of Brazil, I feel fresh and already ready to move on. I realize that makes me sound a little dismissive of the relationship, but I WILL miss him... just, I've already dealt with the separation aspect. Anyways, single again, and looking for love. Rawr.

This is bullshit. I'm officially pissed off.

Those of you who talk to me already know what this is about, those who don't... be cautioned, this post might have been directed at you.

The title's random, and has nothing to do with this post, just in case you were wondering.

Today's gonna r0x0rz! I've come up with a good deal more information on my film premise (the one that's similar to Cigarette Burns) and I got a good response from the one person I've explained it to so far. Furthermore, tonight we're watching The Machinist, which I've been meaning to watch again for a while, since I remember little about it and know that it needs a second watching to figure out exactly what's going on, haha. Also, we're watching Imagine Me And You, which has the potential of being quite good. Good movie night, whee!

Last night with Co and Doug was super-fun, I wanna hang out with them more often.

Some, though not all, of my doubt within the past couple of days (I'm sure most of you know what I'm talking about, I practically couldn't shut up about it =P) has been lifted, possibly just because I'm in a better mood right now, but I'm glad of it.

I'm still creatively blocked right now, especially in song-writing. Not so much with drawing, but I haven't been in the mood lately, and luckily my script ideas have been coming up a bit more easily lately, so that's a plus, but I still don't like when I can't think of any good music to do. I really need to write more of my musical!

Yes, it's true, I'm in love with somebody and he doesn't love me back...



















...Why, Steven Strait, why?!

OMG that's the hair I want. Heheh, Sky High's so great. I've been watching a lot of teen/high school comedies lately, they're so much fun. Next on the list, getting into YTV's 15/Love, since I've been an extra a few times and the premise sounds intriguing, and of course it's a high school comedy. I NEEDS IT!

In other news, things are looking.... ish? Juco's still gone, creatively I'm as low as I could be, although a lot of my old film ideas that I'd completely forgotten about are starting to resurface (OMG Masters of Horror's "Cigarette Burns" has such a similar premise to one of my film treatments!). Everyone seems to be gone right now... Juco, Josh, Chris, Alex (though that's no fault of his own)... and Carolynn can't be there every day. Furthermore, for the past 4 days (although thankfully not today) I've been feeling incredibly restless and antsy. Hopefully I managed to get rid of that, because I decided that to remedy it I'd go for a 3 hour walk yesterday. It was definitely soothing.

I think I need a hug pretty soon. Man-hug. Long and passionate. August 9th, get your butt over here!

I should just learn when to shut the fuck up.

So yesterday I had my audition as a jock, which I felt I actually managed to accomplish in at least a credible capacity. I wore double-layers to bulk my chest and shoulders up (I actually found myself looking REALLY different in the mirror) shaved my stubble into a chin-strap to square my jaw a bit and then did my best to act like the biggoted jerk I was trying out for. I guess only time will tell how well I did...

On the plus side, the night before the audition I found out that Chris was ALSO auditioning for the movie (a different role, too, so we weren't competing) and miraculously happened to be scheduled very close before me, so we actually met up in the casting agency! We talked while waiting to go in, and I volunteered to go to some swimsuit sale with him afterwards because I was bored and didn't feel like leaving downtown right away, and he needed a swimsuit for when he goes to PEI, which is today, heh. So yeah, discount swimsuits generally tend to be ugly, but we found one that had an alright pattern, and Chris said it fit pretty well, so mission accomplished. He said he couldn't do the dinner thing because he hadn't packed yet so we parted ways. Still was fun to see him for a second time within a month, lol.

Not much is new creatively. Came up with a new poem for the front-page of this here journal, because it was stagnant and needed to change, and I also started writing a new song but it's not fantastic, the message is nicer than the words themselves. I feel stuck in a rut these days (forever?).

So this was my day. After waking up and being online for a couple of hours, I get driven to Bureau En Gros to get my resumés printed, which I'm picking up tomorrow. My dad leaves to go downtown. So far so good.

So now I have to pick up 1) Hot chocolate, 2) A gift for a gift exchange at my friend's Christmas In July party, and 3) wrapping paper to wrap the gift in. So I find #2 pretty easily, and I know that at Fairview I'm not going to find any inexpensive hot chocolate, but I can pick it up at Metro on the way to her house. Wrapping paper = dollar store. But when I get there, they don't have any scotch tape. Way to go, crappy dollar store! So I decide I can also get the tape in the mall with the Metro at their dollar store. I go outside and am aware that the 217 is due to come shortly, and rush over.

At about 3:20 (the bus was supposed to come at 3:17) it starts to rain. No, not rain. Not even downpour. This was, like, the most intense rain I've seen for oh, about 4/5 years. And no umbrella for me. Some nice guy who had a spare offered it to me, and I went over to share it with the other girl who was waiting and didn't have an umbrella, only to find it's a friend from high school, Jackie! So we start talking, and it turns out she'd been waiting there since the OTHER 217 which ALSO didn't show up, which means she waited about an hour. Anyways, after it finally showed up at about 3:45, I tried to find out my friend's address since I didn't have my invite with me. What's this? My PHONE starts malfunctioning because of the water.

Anyways, to put a long story short I got to the party and poor Co (the hostess) had to get me a change of clothing (one of her shirts and her boyfriend's shorts) a towel and I got water all over her floor. The party was, at least, super fun. We played a bunch of crazy games (Scrabble and Tutti Frutti) had good food and talked for a long time.

Yes, fun times. At least until I come home only to find I'd left my wallet at her house. Hooray! And the worst part is I don't know where I put it, which means she might not be able to find it slash somebody might have taken it. So, I gotta go back tomorrow. I feel so bad, I'm a terrible guest. AND my life is all blah.

Not to mention the fact that I had to pass up a trip to St. Sauveur water-slides to go to an audition for a part I don't think I could EVER get (a "square-jawed jock"). But at least, I feel like after today I've had enough of water. I think I have a cold -_-

Hurray for puns that include literary works, they make me feel witty.

So I shaved my goatee, not by choice, but because I essentially got paid 150$ to do so (well, I also had to "work" doing some modelling for about an hour, as if THAT was so painful). It proved useful though, since during the same week I had an audition for a 16 year old character, couldn't hurt to be less facial-hair. Then I had ANOTHER audition the next day! AND I have a job as an extra sometime in the beginning of August. Hello acting career, here I come! (Not that I'll get the roles I auditionned for, I'm sure).

Saw Chris the other day, was very much fun, must happen more often! He's going to PEI soon and Josh is disappearing for a little while too, but that means I can put all my concentration into making arrangements with Alex, which is long overdue.

Juco's still gone, but I talked to him online for the first time a couple of days ago, and I'm keeping myself pretty busy while he's away, I misses my guy :( With all the busyness I've been preoccupied and haven't been very sad, but at LaRonde there were several rides where I had to share seats and spoon with my random friends because of the way seats are constructed, and all I could think about was how much I missed cuddling my guy. Get back to Montreal!!!

Somebody inspire me, I'm in a slump.

A surprisingly little amount of life has occured since my last entry several days ago. Juco's off to Brazil for the next month and a bit, while I'm here trudging through my life. Not to say that anything's bad right now, it's just.... whatev. I've been watching Sex And The City religiously for about a week now and have ploughed through 3 seasons already, but aside from that, accomplishments are few and far between. I'm feeling a little lonely (and it's only gonna get worse until my guy gets back) and a little rushed, and although my stylish new cap advocates my sexuality, I feel like I couldn't be farther from attracting those handsome guys on the street (not that I need to, full-on monogamy here, it'd just be nice to be noticed). Also, I'm going through some rocky area with Carolynn, nothing too severe and it's never consistant, and we have a lot of fun when we're together, it's just that seems to be occasions few and far between these days. I thought the summer was supposed to be about time off, but I never seem to have enough. Interestingly enough, I HAVE been getting a little more into the swing of my secondary job, my acting "career", in the past couple of weeks. An audition, a photo shoot for a flier or something, and a new resume photo have all led me to feel a little more confident in regards to me not being a washed-up has-been (although by no means am I a star on the rise =P).

In any case, I'm not really sure how I think I should feel in all of this situation, nor how I actually DO feel. Ups and downs have become not daily symptoms, but hourly even, and I'm not sure whether I feel good or bad at any given moment. Maybe I should hire somebody to tell me.